just chillllllllll.................

Thesis is over!!.. yuhoooooo!!!!
Procrastinated thesis just keeps on goin worse n worse!...

So many emotion were surging together - dejection, depression, distress, despair, panic, disapproval, sadness, pressure, anxiousness….. blah blah…

Even if the things were goin fine and falling in place; there was a constant.. Irrational. Illogical fear….. n then I wud end up wid qstions like… ‘wat if’…

What if………. the file is corrupted….
Wat if…………. the comp conks….
Wat if………… the backup fails..or worse thre isn’t ne…
Wat if………..the jury won’t accept my design
Wat if…
Wat if….

U keep on finding these answers wherever possible and often u mite end up gtin answers like… just chill,.. relax, …. Chilax.. take a chill pill..

Btw seriously more often thn not it dsnt wrk!!... u kno dat deep within u

Still u call… message every1… letting selected ppl know about ur fears…
If nothing... at least it makes u feel better talking to them…

Just a recent incident…

I was on my way to take plots and was on call wid a frnd.. and as usual I was.. gtin answers like..’ just chill neha.. it wud wrk out’…
AND at that very instant the radio starts playin… ‘just chil…. chill jst chil!!>..
and I was like…..NOOO!!!!... that was lik the last thng I wanted…. The timing cudnt have been ne worse…

Hmm… btw alls well that ends well
Feels gr8 that the trauma is over … hopefully!!...

Recently a frnd had clld me up and the conv was like…..…
frnd :“Im so tnsd ive got my entrance exams cmmin up’….

No rewards 4 guessin my response!...
Me : ‘.JUST CHILLLLLLLLLLLL!!!’.....